Closed Doors...

Would life be easier if we closed one door and open another one? I wish upon Hail Mary that we shud have some magical keys that would just lock up our past to open it's doors for the future.

She can feel a sense of closure, for the first time in her life. This time the words were clear, unequivocal and the tone imploring. It's about time to put the past behind and time to get on with life. In many ways she had succeeded in overcoming the initial outrage and bitterness she felt over all that happened between them. But even after so many months, some nights she still woke up and lay sleepless for hours, not angry but infinetly sad, remembering that they were happy - genuinely happy for the time they knew each other. A story she tried to not let herself think of anymore. But when she touched that place in her heart where he still lived, the pain of it all still took her breath away.

His actions, words, statements, all of it made the closing easier. She had been liked. That's all she wanted to hear.. Now, she stands in front of her past with its heavy doors inching towards total closure. She feels peace with the decisions she has made, she has learned to live with the mistakes and imperfections. She has also decided to open those "Closed Doors" that she had closed for the last so many years. Things are changing. She deserves every bit of it. She deserves kindness, respect, regard, respect, warmth and a lifetime of love ahead.....

She is ME.